you know how there are times in your life when everything seems to be going slowly and then there are the other times in your life when everything seems to be a whirlwind and there doesn't seem to have enough time for everything? this is presently my state of mind. i am pressured to to all the things i have to do by this week and trust me it isn't easy feeling sleepy all day when you're supposed to be working. not easy to be drinking caffe latte's every night and feeling like your brain is fried from lack of sleep and your nerves are shot from drinking too much coffee.. it's hard to think properly when you feel like your brain is running on overdrive.... and everything you do, say, think just doesn't make sense anymore simply cos you're damn tired....
i just spent two to three hours trying to send the publisher of the school yearbook pictures that i really have to send tonight and it won't work. i feel like crying, shouting, breaking down, throwing away my seattle's best iced caffe latte and just freaking going to bed. i am tired of waking up in the morning half asleep, seeing all my things spread all around cos i don't have the time to fix them and looking at the mountain of work that still needs to be done. i am just PLAIN TIRED. making this entry cost me some precious minutes that i could've spent working but geez i just felt like i needed the break or else will go crazy already. i needed to spill my thoughts and so here it is. I AM GOING TO SLEEP KNOWING THAT I WILL REGRET GOING TO SLEEP COS I HAVEN'T DONE ANYTHING AT ALL TONIGHT. I FEEL SO BAD, TIRED, DRAINED AND GUILTY THAT I HAVEN'T DONE MUCH TONIGHT. self-pity? i will think about it while sleeping. .........
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